I
have only fainted two or three times, to my knowledge. Each of these incidents
was triggered by a breach of some kind. It is possible that the piercing of a
membrane triggers my reaction.
The
most significant time that this happened was when, as a 14 year old (or
thereabouts), I watched a slide show of a cataract operation. A representative
of a charity was demonstrating, through a narrative constructed of images, a remarkable
new kind of scalpel. The new invention was a scalpel, with a diamond for a
blade, attached to a fibre-optic cable allowing the tool to act as a light
source for itself. Ingenious, and a great improvement on the traditional metal
scalpels that cast shadows onto the surface to be cut. The charity representative
wanted us to raise money for these scalpels to be bought in order that they
could be used in the Third World.
While
watching this slide show, from the first row, I passed out. I came round at
home. It’s one of the great lacunae of my life. I’m not sure, but I reckon I
fainted at the moment the tip of the scalpel pierced the cornea.
The
other times I have been close to fainting generally relate to drawing blood. As
a 10 year old I underwent a minor dental operation and in preparation for that,
I had to give a blood sample. This was in the mid-1970s and the technique
employed was a lot less efficient than the one used now. A nurse pierced my
thumb with a scalpel blade (metal, not diamond), and placed a capillary tube on
the cut. The meniscus of the blood, through capillary action, was supposed
effect the filling of the tube. Perhaps, on reflection, my blood pressure was
the agent here, but whatever happened, it didn’t work. The red liquid crawled
up to about half-way. A second nurse took over and stabbed my other thumb – a
violation, rather than a procedure – and filled the tube in moments.
Afterwards, my vision closed in about me and I could hear my blood pumping in
my temples. I was guided outside and sat with my head between my knees and
slowly felt better. I remember vividly the concrete steps and brick walls of
the tatty courtyard in which I came to.
The
third, and strangest, of all my remembered fainting incidents was when a
biology teacher (this must have been about the same time as the cataract
episode), explained how an amniocentesis is taken. Like all science labs in the
school, we were sat on high stools, rather than chairs and I recall lolling
back to rest on the bench behind me. I don’t think I actually passed out
completely, but I know that I felt strange, but not nauseous. No-one ever
mentioned it, so perhaps my self-image of the reaction is exaggerated and
wrong.
So,
when a surface is pierced, I am likely to react. The action, which reveals
something fundamental, seems a violation. I want the surface to remain intact
and available for inspection in its recognisable form.

